Answers Honestly

So a friend sent this and asked if I could fill it out with out lying. So here we go...

1. What was the last thing you put in your mouth? A fig newton and blood pressure medicine.

2. Do you sleep naked? Sometimes

3. Worst physical pain in your life? Tearing my pectoral muscle.

4. Worst emotional pain of your life? My parents death

5. Favourite place you have ever been to? New Orleans, with Savannah, GA being a distant second.

6. How late did you stay up last night? Til 3 AM. I don’t sleep so well anymore.

7. If you could move somewhere else, where would it be? Not too many options these days. The 

world is so divided. But Brazil, Japan Canada and France are at the top of the list.

8. Which of your Facebook friend lives the closest? Arthur

9. When was the last time you cried? Watching the tribute to Chester Bennington

10. Who took your profile picture? Me

11. What's your favorite season? Winter. Fuck this heat

12. If you could have any career what would it be? Comic book artist or Storyboard designer.

13. What was the last book you read? Still reading The Dragon and the Unicorn

14. If you could talk to ANYONE who would it be? Bruce Lee

15. Are you a good influence? I like to think so, but it’s doubtful

16. Does pineapple belong on Pizza? I’m cool with it.

17. You have the remote, what will you be watching right now? Luke Cage

18. Last concert you went to? Sister Hazel 2009

19. Favorite type of food? All the crap they cook here, I’ve forgotten what real food is.

SUCCESS TO ME (Part I)

What are your goals?  How will you succeed? What do you plan to do once you’ve achieved it? 

I heard these questions so much in high school and by the time I had turned Nineteen I was flat out sick of it.  19.  The number, that age seems so foreign now.  All through my teens, and afterwards every college mock interview, the same thing: “So where do you see yourself 5 years from now?” in one some variation or another. When they finally stopped asking that told me two things:  1) I was finally “grown” and 2) No one cared.  I’m sitting here now, practically punching my keyboard because I’ve finally made a choice. What that choice is…I don’t know.  Not completely anyway. But it has been made.  Ironically, it started with the aforementioned dumb-ass question:

What would happen if you succeed?

Age 35 I realized I couldn’t answer that question.  I didn’t want to.  I don’t mind feeding bull-shit to the stuff-shirts, but I’m not about to kid myself.  Life is WAAAAY too random, and your mindset can change without you even knowing it sometimes.  Whenever I try to capitalize on an opportunity (and believe me I’ve had plenty), something comes along and kicks the chair out from under me;  Finances, family, some hang-up that I can’t deal with, or I just flat out got passed up.  Self-sabotage isn’t out of the question, a while back I wrote about being afraid of success.  I just expect to come up short now, ever since I moved to North Carolina it’s been one ‘L’ after another; after 13 years, the upshots of living here can be counted on one hand.

Success is a foreign tongue to me.  I don’t hunger for money the way much of the world tells us we should (financial stability yes, but money for money’s sake, never.)  That kind greed is a trait I despise and tends to breed cruelty along with the reptilian instinct to fuck over just about any and everyone in an unending, unwinnable contest for resources, money and any kind of fame.  People don’t have names anymore; they have brands and corporate identities. That’s not the success I see for myself.  Never have.  I’m not a ‘boss’ or ‘shot-caller’, I’m just a dude who wants to do what he’s always done.  I want to tell stories; JK Rowling, Jack Kirby, Stephen King, Jim Lee…any person reading this recognizes at least two of these names.  My goal is to be numbered among them.

A similar question proved to be fairly profound, probably because it was the first time I had asked it to myself and really REALLY thought on it:”How would you feel if you reached that success?” 

How would I feel? Proud maybe?  Dumbfounded?  Totally numb to it?  How did Superman feel when he learned he could fly?  How did T’Challa feel when he became King?  Anxious maybe…  As I said before, it’s not a taste that I’m used to.  I once wrote of the possibility that I may be afraid of success.  The kind of success everyone wants an educated black man to have, where you carry everyone until you break and when you finally do, there’s no one to pick you up.  No.  I’ve decided that my success would be the weird and nerdy self-indulgent success I knew as an athlete.  That taste of personal accomplishment, knowing that I can do it because I’ve done it.  That’s the success I want.  That’s the feeling I love, when someone asks me “Hey can you handle this project” and I can say, “Yeah, no problem…" with no problem.

I think I’m gonna stop here for now but I’ll definitely be writing more about it. 

Getting to Know Me

They used to do this on social media years back. I don't know why but I thought they were fun back then; maybe because I didn't know myself all that well.


• Favorite smell: Concrete after Rain
• Last time you cried: Watching Logan.
• Favorite pizza: Chicken, Spinach and Pineapple (yes I said Pineapple)
• Favorite Flower: Roses I guess
• Favorite dog breed: Catahoula (Leopard Dog)
• Favorite foot attire: Anything comfortable
• Roller Coaster: Yes.
• Hair color: Black
• Favorite ice cream: Cookies and Cream
• Pet peeve: Morons. All shapes, all forms, all colors.
• Shorts or jeans: Jeans
• What are you listening to right now: New Rules with Bill Maher
• Color of your car: Green
• Color of eyes: Dark Brown
• Favorite Holiday: Xmas.
• Night owl or morning: Night Owl
•Favorite day of the week: Any day I can sleep in.
• Nickname: Dean
• Favorite type of music: Hip hop, Raggae, Hard Rock, Jazz
• Tattoos: No
• Do you like to cook? Only when I have to.
• Beer or wine? Vodka
• Can you drive a manual shift? Yes
• Do you wear perfume? No
• Favorite color? Blue (formerly Red)
• Do you like vegetables? Yes
• Do you work out? As often as I can
• Do you wear glasses? Yes...
• Favorite season: Winter.
•Favorite Movie of All Time: TMNT ‘